A Famosa Resort

戊戌年 2018 农历新年

巴西铁树。花

巴西铁树，只有天气变凉时，才开花。平时都要到了傍晚七点后才开花，但有一天下午下雨，天气变凉了，傍晚5点多就开花了。

香味如茉莉花。家人都说很香，只是我偶尔才闻到，也许是鼻塞或是常闻茉莉花味道和常喝茉莉花茶的原故。

离不开的离开

妳离开着
安静的我 静静坐着
忙着 痛着

妳离开着
静静的我 心里呐喊着
撕裂的心 喊着妳的逗留
喊着 撕裂着 渴望着

妳离开了
空间空荡荡的 荡着
妳的影子 气息
思念 荡着 回荡着

妳离开了
呆呆的我 呆待着
思念着

。。。。。。
很久不把对她的感觉写下来，因为越写就越深，刻骨，牢牢在心里。可是不写，又不能对她说，就没得抒发，就压抑着，难受。

Two . Voices

"You still like her, still miss her, still have your heart on her. Go and ask her out."

"Don't. Already embarrassing her with the flower, some more with the stupid love messages, annoyed her,  disturbed her life, want to make it more worse!"

"No no no. You just told her about your feelings, not disturbing her, not a stupid."

"Why you so pathetic. You are nothing to her, you are joke, just a old man, old senior. You are scary and annoying, bad tempers."

"Just go and ask her out, as a colleague, as a friend, as a gentleman, make her like you."

"Don't dream lah, it won't happen. She easy going with everyone but not you. Why. Because she doesn't like you, because you are scary."

"Just follow your heart. You want her be with you, happy seeing her. Don't listen to the devil whispering."

"Do you think you are good enough for her. What can you give her."

"You know you will give your best to her, love her with your heart, she is your world."

"Ya right, your best to her. What best you have. The best that you have is still not good enough for her. If not why you ex-girlfriend left. Because you are not good enough."

"Ask her out. Make her happy."

"You got no hope lah. You are boring, not romantic, talk empty, don't know how to cheers girl up. No girl likes you. She doesn't like you."

........

214。爱一世

又见2月14，又到情人节了。又是单身的我。除了那五六年不是单身外，我的人生大半世都是一个人过情人节。

久而久之，都习惯了。

心中有爱，有个喜欢的她，虽然没能在一起，还是可以惦记着她，但单身过情人节。

214，爱一世。

它。吱

深夜了，它在我的睡房里，吱吱的吱吱的叫。

我跟它说:"现在已经深夜了，我想睡觉了，你去客厅叫啦。"

但它还是在叫。也许它知道我寂寞吧，在陪陪我。也许它想谈谈天吧，所以都在一直讲话，但我听不明白啊。唯有静静地听，让它继续的叫咯。

管好自己。闲事莫理

因为在乎，希望对方变得更好，所以才会想如何一起提升学术，才会有期待，才会生气。

但每个人都有自己的想法，都有自己的方式，也不要他人打扰或干涉。

我应该已经明白这道理，也应该记得。多年的工作经验，都不该去理其他同事的事。只是有时相处比较好了，像朋友了，就忘了这道理，不干涉他人的道理。

要变成好与坏，更进步还是得过且过，都是个人自己的责任。外人干涉不了，切记切记。

管好自己就好。