疗愈

种植花花草草，除了美之外，香之外，其实也是疗愈自己心灵。

有时心累了，烦恼了，动手除除草，修修花树，让自己慢下来，让心情平复。

人啊!多忧愁，多烦恼，而解决的速度又比产生的慢，所以啊！要给自己寻找疗愈的方法。

疗愈，才能放下。

Headache

Headache, 头痛的事。

CCTV, IP Cam, 1080p? 2MP? Onvif support?  Price?!!

Works, how to break each n-columns as a group and save as new row? Looping?

天天都更好

My destiny, alone

I have whatsoever no right, ruining other people life, especially to the people I like, I care and I love.

Stop doing thing that i am not confident on delivering.

Be Dumb

Most the time after work, have dinner and shower, I prefer be dumb. Just playing some brainless games, or watch some entertainment shows, laughing and forget it thereafter, or read some books, or even better just lay down on chair and do nothing at all.

Some time it is just to scary to think: the future, the money, career and blah blah blah.

Just brainless for few hours and go to sleep. Wake up and it is another day.

Life, Am I..?

Life is full with questions, doubts and frustrations.

Am I in the best for her? How do I guarantee able to give what she wants? Yes I will give the best I have, but the best that I have is it the best for her. I know I will be better and better, but is it enough?

Love, is not game, it is commitment, it is life time commitment. I want my partner has the best in her life, but can I be the one giving it?

Works, I forced myself take up responsibilities to do, so that keep learning things. But I am struggling, not happy with results. I need to be faster on getting works done, but some time takes me few days to solve a problem. I don't like it.

I don't know is my future, even I build it steps by steps, I think. While seeing friends are married, have children, or some even divorced, the worrying part, but what am I doing?

I am not person chasing name or be materialistic, preferring to live in simple life, have family, children's and partner, but...can I?

Just hope I don't think and think and think. It is scary, the more I think, the more I am worrying, and the more I doubt myself.

I need a hug, telling me, everything will be ok.

5.1 Labour Day

五一劳动节，假日，就是要劳动身体的时候。

平时工作只是劳动脑，但久了，有再好的脑，没有健康的身体支撑着，也无用之地。