Life is full with questions, doubts and frustrations.
Am I in the best for her? How do I guarantee able to give what she wants? Yes I will give the best I have, but the best that I have is it the best for her. I know I will be better and better, but is it enough?
Love, is not game, it is commitment, it is life time commitment. I want my partner has the best in her life, but can I be the one giving it?
Works, I forced myself take up responsibilities to do, so that keep learning things. But I am struggling, not happy with results. I need to be faster on getting works done, but some time takes me few days to solve a problem. I don't like it.
I don't know is my future, even I build it steps by steps, I think. While seeing friends are married, have children, or some even divorced, the worrying part, but what am I doing?
I am not person chasing name or be materialistic, preferring to live in simple life, have family, children's and partner, but...can I?
Just hope I don't think and think and think. It is scary, the more I think, the more I am worrying, and the more I doubt myself.
I need a hug, telling me, everything will be ok.
