痛不欲生

When the love beneath in heart is filling with emptiness....

当深藏的爱被空荡占据。。。

Quand l'amour est seul...

509。换政府

5月9号，爸爸，我们换政府了，我们做到了!您应该欣慰吧，高兴吧!

随然您没机会亲眼见到，您也说过您在世的一生也大概不会见到换政府，但我们的却做到了。

您，安慰吧。

愿这国家越来越好，不再以种族区分，也不再猜疑，大家能和平共处。

401。愚人节

4月1号，愚人节，它不见了。

家人在家后面发现它时，它孤独的在叫。家人看了很久，不见它妈妈来，也不见其它同类，担心猫咪会把它吃了，所以捉回来养。

它是一只山鸡孩子，刚出世不久，我们都好奇为什么只有它，它妈妈去哪里了，其它小鸡呢?

它还小，所以把它放在箱子里，然后放家里里面，晚上用布盖着它，让它好好睡觉，不怕冷。

慢慢的它长大了，很会跳来跳去，飞来飞去，山鸡的本性。我觉得它自己一只，很孤独，就去买了一只和它一样大的小鸡回来。它们越来越大，就买了个比较大的笼子给它们住，放家外。偶尔放它们出来走走，找吃。但也不敢常放，因为家里的狗就是讲不听，要捉鸡。

哥哥们都喜欢和它玩，但有时它飞的高高的地方，就头痛如何捉它。渐渐的它们越来越大了，两只都做好朋友了，但爱抢彼此的食物，或啄对方的毛，导致成一部分身体是无毛的。

和妈妈说过，有一天如果它们要走，回森林和其它山鸡一起，就让它们走吧。妈妈也认同，也说不会杀了它们来吃，因为它们就像家人一样了。

有一天，买回来的那只，病死了。而山鸡，开始孤独了。妈妈会在中午时开门让它出来走走找吃。到了傍晚，就会叫它回来，给它吃饭。山鸡特别喜欢吃饭，所以每次到了时间，它就会靠近笼子处等，等妈妈倒饭给吃。

4月1日，往常的，妈妈要倒饭给它吃，叫它回家，但都不见它踪影。叫了很久，它都没回来。妈妈说最后一次见它是4点多左右，它在扒地找吃。

我们找了找家四周围，草丛里，都不见它。到了今天一个月多也过去了，也没见到它。

希望，它如我所说的，是选择回到了森林里，和其它山鸡一起吧。只要它没事就好。

BIGIT

Had been long time not drinking beers, after few cups, a bit drunk.

Was attending A BIGIT event, wasn't expecting social network sessions after the first day event, and had few cups of beers. Liquor was offered but really I couldn't drink, still need to drive home after that.

Anywhere was fun talking to people, sharing their knowledge and experiences, even thought I was not from digital marketing like they do, that make me learn a lot.

Surprisingly when I told them I came to this event on my own expenses, and my working role has nothing to do with digital marketing, they seemed to surprised. Maybe Malaysians culture is that we won't attend this kind of event on our own money, and mostly must be sponsored by company.

I just wanna learn something new. Not sure if in some point it does help, but at least I am happy learning something new.

心痛

也许我快一些，也许我不要那么天真，以为小白会听话，小鸟就不会死了。

家里狗狗一只只都不听话，一直和它们说不可以捉小鸟，严厉警告，但还是不听。

今夜，又一只被吓到而迷路的，被咬死了。

把小鸟握在手里，已经没有呼吸，心很痛。也许我动作快一些，把小白拉着，小鸟就没事了。

Sign Language, BIM

Finished the last exam of level 3 sign language on 1st May, life back to normal (or boring) : work and home on weekdays.

Was struggling for few weeks rushing on assignments, outdoor activity with Deaf, story telling, presentation slides and preparation of exam. I was worried,  yet everything had past now.

Grateful and thankful knowing Deaf friends, and learning sign language is not just about the sign, but also Deaf community cultures. Learning new term too, Deafhood.

Deaf, they are minorities, and being oppressed in many way. Can see they are fighting for their rights, to be treated equally in hearing-people dominant society.

I still can't sign and communicate with Deaf well, tend to forget vocabularies, but at least it is good starting point.

Learning is always a long journey,  can't stop.