143 . I Miss You

A midnight, raining. Do you sleep well? If I couldn't have you with me, I wish I will see you in dream.

I know I will. Will you too?

Good night. You, in my heart.

农历。礼品

新春佳节要到了，又是买肉干的时候。

以前的我，会买肉干或佳节礼品送同事。后来发觉，其实同事都不在乎，又何必自己多此一举。

近几年，每年的新年，买肉干从五六百块，到现在接近千块。分量是买少了，东西却越来越贵了。

暂。美

花再美 也是短暂 也有凋零时

Beh tahan you

You got to stop the madness! What is wrong with you! She is just few steps away from your place, and you still thinking of her, missing her, wondering how is she doing?! She is doing fine, very fine, happily with colleagues. You got to stop it, go focus on your works, your life, your future. She doesn't need you or want you, ok! Can't you just wake up! I really beh tahan  you!

15 years

After 15 years, we met up again.

It was extremely tough time during that time, worked like hell, no day and night, slept in the office at night, then woke up in the morning next day just back to home to shower and then back to office to work.

It was crazier thing I had done, with another colleague, for couple of months or years, can't really remember.

He was our boss, based in Singapore ingenico, once a well visited us. He is talker, none stop talking things and jokes.

After 15 years, met him up again. He is still the same.

Memory, I don't remember much of the past, or the feelings of suffering or pains that had gone through, just piece of memories here and there.

What life is? It is what you have gone through that built you up to what you are on today.

Studburn

Works, most of the time, struggling on finding way to do it better, rather then doing it.

Just a studburn of me...to be better than me before.

写

有时 不会明白自己为什么会写或要写 但就是自然而然的写了。

不喜欢 夜
唤醒熟睡的情
不喜欢 夜
隐隐刺痛的思
不喜欢 夜
孤寂无助的静
不喜欢 夜
浩浩荡荡侵蚀

不 喜欢夜
痴痴迷迷陶醉
不 喜欢夜
切切实实有妳
不 喜欢夜
呵护着妳我愿
不 喜欢夜
有妳有我此生

死。爱

为妳写了诗
从此都想死
遇见震撼死
不见妳像死
想妳想到死
思念妳要死
渴望拥抱死
爱妳爱到死

1月15日，我记得这日子。

椅子

在他人的眼里 这只是不起眼的椅子
在一些人的眼里 这是充满回忆的

明天1月15日

Pointless

Half way of doing the appraisal, thinking the comments part, to put down complaint but what for, to write things that learnt but what for, to list down personal challenges but what for, to tell improvement of company but what for

Everything just meaningless when no one care and share.

Meaningless and emptiness life, without having you.

I am crazy again.

Appraiser

It is time to fill in work appraiser.

For the past years, all my appraiser were mellow.

This year, needs some different, from heart and telling the true.

What I have seen and how I felt about the working cultures, the productivities, the structures and the people.

Enough is enough

2019

2019年1月5日，农历十一月卅日，爸爸的祭日。

2019年1月6日，农历腊月初一，离己亥年新年还有一个月。

2019年，新的一年，只希望大家平平安安，健健康康，度过这一年。