Condolence 节哀

Sorry to hear the news from you, I don't know what could i do. I am very sad as you do, for the first child, you were to have, died before arrive to this world, just few more days for her, get to know you. I am sorry

今早回到公司的第一个消息，竟然是接到你的通知，哭着的告诉我，小孩胎死腹中。就是还有那几天而已， 几天而已，她却离开了。对不起。

Shit!!!!!!!!

I'm wondering how much money that Brazilian got to pay, to make all the Referees got blinded?

Everyone who had watched the W-Cup yesterday, Brazil against the Ghana, would definitely had the same feeling like me. Just taking the 2nd and the 3rd goal as example, the Brazilian was already offside, very clear to everyone, but the referees seemed like had sight problem!They "couldn't" see it?!!!!!!!!! SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!! Where did they put their brains? In the dicks?!!!!

I'm not a supporter for Ghana, and in fact already expecting Brazil would win the game, but not in this manner!

Shit Shit Shit!!!!!!!!!

学会了

自幼，就体会了失望，学会失望，原谅失望。当最需要有个人安慰时，他们都袖手旁观。失望，逼自己成长，学会不对别人有所期待，抱着太大的希望，学会与孤寂和平共处，做知己。

学会了要自立，孤立，要坚强。学会了不为寂寞而难过，流泪，而爱。学会了要别人学会坚强，也学会了事实就是事实，学会面对。 学会把自己的心锁得稳稳的，收得静静的，只为唯一的而开。学会了不到最后关头，不打扰别人，他们的时间是很珍贵的。学会了短暂的拥有，是最好的，因为永远并不存在。也学会了，人本来就是孤单的，来时如此，去也是。

学会了别人需要自己时，出现，该离开时离开。学会了扮演配角的角色，主角不会是自己。学会了要对每一个人好，照顾他们，爱上他们。学会了允许他们伤害自己，黯然而去。学会了爱一个人，未必须说出来，但会呵护她，守护她。学会了如果，没有百分之百的肯定能给一个人幸福，多爱也要离开，山盟海誓并不可靠。学会了如果爱能填补一个人的期待，欲望，就爱吧，虽然已知是不会拥有。

学会了被人利用，也无所谓，显得自己有存在的价值。学会了要把事情看得一清二楚，但要扮无知。学会了没有白吃的东西，要得到就要耕耘，要牺牲。学会了要对别人微笑，和别人分享快乐，伤心留给自己。学会付出是应该的，期望回报是错误的。学会了自我，但别人的利益更重要，自身是能牺牲的。

学会了不管什么事都好，心灵不能放弃，因为她是最后的支撑。学会了宗教都是诈骗集团，都在谋自己的利益，最崇高的那个，是最完美的谎者。学会了鬼并不存在，只是零散的记忆随带粒子飘荡。学会了死并不可怕。

学会了取笑别人，自己才是白痴。学会了说谎如果能保护一个人，不妨说，承担一切的后果。

学会了把心情化为文字，因为他们不会别扭，埋怨，会专心听。学会了做个良好的听众，把听到的永埋在心底。学会了被人出卖是正常的，要原谅她们，离开他们，但出卖别人是死罪。学会了不能多管闲事，不能问太多，别人想说的，自然会说。

学会了不会让别人失望，只给绝望。

瞬间。。。

往常的下午，静静地。忙着准备明天交接的文件及事物，接听偶尔打来的询问或需支援的电话，习惯性的微笑。

习惯性的外出，一个人吃午餐，观察别人的一举一动，身旁的事物。独行侠，或怪胎，已是自己的乳名了。管它的。

忙着，忙着，呼吸越来越困难了，心跳得越来越快。停下来一会儿，更辛苦。

不能啊！要保持平静，慢慢地呼吸，深呼吸，转移视线，离开思绪，回到工作上。呼吸还是不能暖和，思绪没止尽的漫游，在漫游。

继续忙着，动作更快，逃离思绪，逃离。。。。

逃离，你存在的空间里。

I just Called to Say....

思念你

“累了，慢慢地闭上眼睛，慢慢地，眼前模糊了，呼吸缓和了。你开始在脑海里，启程了，越走越快，越来越快，心，和着你的动力，跳动着。喂。。。你不要走那么快哦，怕你累坏了，我会心痛的哟。脚步放慢些，我怕心跳跟不上你的节奏啦。 ”

受困

“如果爱有限期，为何，我等不到？如果恨无绝期，可否，你悄悄走？”

Fucking U

When was the last time, someone said ‘fuck you’ to you? I just had it an hour ago, from friend.

I didn’t know whether he’s angry at me, being not helpful, or he’s moody today. Perhaps, he’d a bad day. Who did not, anywhere. Did he really mean it, or just to release some tension and pressure? Only he’d know the truth.

Fuck-you, had become the common word, nowadays. Walking through in the streets, or in the movies, or ours daily conversation with friends, we were using it, somehow, to express the feeling. I would be very surprise, if someone was so disturbed by the words, seems like he or she was living in another world, could it be utopia? I myself did use it, sometimes, in the writing, or conversation. Of cause it’s not in front of strangers, or in front of ladies. Somehow, still need to show some respect to the others.

I never come cross problem with it, just an expression. It’s not like when people were saying it, it really meant fucking you in the public; could be nice if it was happening, then we had free and real show. Would couple say “I am fucking you now”, when making love? I bet, yes.

It would be nice if someone says “Would you leave me alone!” It’s so polite, and showing his or her EQ was good. But, it’s reality if someone says “You, fucking off!” There was nothing wrong, only showing a person personality and attitude. I think this had nothing to do with the degree of education have had.

Either you were fucking me, or I was sucking you, it brings no matter to me anywhere, as long as you happy with it. If you prefer, you could fuck me all time.

What a piece of shit! You, stupid idiot moron!

重

有时太累了，想停留下来看些美丽的风景：一片蓝蓝的海，或绿的森林，或橙红的黄昏，或白白的云，都是一种精神与心情寄托。

繁忙的城市，留下的，是疲倦的短暂欢乐，空虚的心灵满足。

真，珍，爱

人，本来就是一对的。 某天，为了让彼此更珍惜对方，学习真爱，彼此离开了对方，忘记对方。彼此相信，如果之间是真爱，彼此会不惜一切，爬上天涯，去到海角，寻觅另一方，再次让沉睡的爱苏醒，再相爱。

143 x 7 = 1437

I Meet You: It’s your smile, brought me away from this world, stole my soul away.

I Like You: Days after days, got to know you. You and your truths, attractively, poisoning my soul slowly.

I Miss You: Had no reason, thinking of you, every moment you’re apart. Standing in front of you, was the hard time no hugging you tightly.

I Want You: Depth inside, crying for your touch, your smile, your soul, making me happy, feeling alive.

I Hate You: Life’s miserable, thinking of you every moment. I hate you! I hate you! I hate you! I hate you!

I Need You: No longer the same, moments without you. Every way you go, I would follow. Please! Don’t leave me alone.

I Love You: Unspeakable wish, silently forever. Truths always hurt, keeping the truth, hurting more.

^o^。。。I Love You Forever。。。^o^

完美无瑕

有了你，世界已完美无瑕。心，只为你而跳。每一秒的空间，都是你，只有你。相聚的每一天，你的微笑，你的好，你得调，你的娇，你的恼，都是生活的音调。。。。

Great Moment

Wasn’t it a happy moment, when someone we knew had past away? Couldn’t we agree more?

As a religion’s follower or believer, death means “back to god” and achieved immortality. Wasn’t this desire of every believer? Then, why should we feel sad about it? Weren’t we should feel happy for that someone; it’s a great moment of that person’s life.

If every thing happened as the god’s desire, then death was part of it. If every thing happened had its own meaning, a message from god, then death was a message too. Then, we should accept the arrangement from god, openly, and positively. We should not feel sad, we should not cry. In fact, we should have a party or gathering for this great moment. Let the person be the King or Queen, a day in his or her whole life.

Yes, we were losing someone physically, and yes we were not seeing the someone again in ours lives, and yes ours world would not be the same anymore, without the someone was hanging around, and yes and yet, we were not able sharing the life anymore, but the someone was here before, we knew, and would be here with us forever.

Perhaps, we were feeling sad, if and only if we knew that someone would be going to hell.

Appreciate and respect the great moment of the person’s life. It only happened once in his or her life.

四千多的日子。。。

四千多个的日子， 都白白地过了，白白地浪费了！

以为一切都会归回平静，感觉也会沉淀，可是。。。。

沉睡的你，为何要苏醒，在四千多个的日子后，再苏醒？为何心会绞痛，眼角有泪，彻夜未眠？

说了这是最好的结局，为何又依依不舍？说了不要回头看，过去已是过去，感觉却仍新？说了不可后悔，不会后悔，为何在痛？呼吸，为何越来越重，屏息，在想你的每秒里？说了放下，会放下，已放下？

为何，时间不守成诺，让你离去？为何，你的消息，还在意？为何，你的失落，自己会忧虑？为何，还期待见你，拥有你？

为什么，要在四千多个的日子后，你再次苏醒？

相思雀

听说，世上有种雀，如果一方长期的不在身边，另一方会因思念过度而死。对你的思念，又何尝不是呢？痛不欲生的日子里，情愿似相思雀般的，郁闷而终。

得不到你的爱，自己的生命已化为零。没有任何的东西，是值得留念的了，除了对你的回忆。回忆，却是痛苦的根源。。唯有你的爱，才能让垂死的灵魂，边沿处救回来。唯有你的爱，才能让自己的生命，重新活跃起来。唯有你的爱，才能把自己的每一秒，绘上色彩。唯有你的爱，自己才能永远释放。

你，是自己生命里，不能的释怀。时间的过逝，你仍然存在。每一个细胞，血液，依然为你澎湃，等待。。是自己的错过，不懂爱，看着你的离开。勇气，却让爱停，待。。。。

无奈，现在。。只能无奈，只能无奈。。。

Welcoming...

Finally...yes finally you have make it....Wishing this is a good starting in your life, new era of sharing yours life, yours thoughts, yours feelings and everything, to every single creature in the world....

人生的每一天，都是一个新的开始，也是一个结束。加油吧！！！！がんばってです