Course Works

It is not the worry of how much course work, but rather it is how much BIM signs I can remember.

I am death meat

手语。聚会

上星期六参加了课外活动，就是和聋哑人士聚会，认识新朋友，也学习手语。

手语就和学习其他语文一样，就是要应用，不能死背。至少我是需要这样，不然很快忘记，根本记不起来。

本地的手语以前都是借用美国手语，现在才慢慢发展出来马来西亚的手语。毕竟有些名称其他国家是没有的，如roti canai, teh tarik, ABC,等等。

这样就出现不同版本的手语。有些还用着ASL版本的，有些则用新版本的，而双方都说是BIM，bahasa isyarat Malaysia。而我有时要学一些新字时，看了ASL的，再看BIM， 如果是一样的那就好办，不然就一头茫。因为有时用BIM的手语，老师说错了，不是这样。有时用ASL的，老师又说错了。

更可怕的， ASL也在改进手语，有些旧式的已经弃用，但有些人还在用。

在聚会里，有位60岁左右的aunty 知道我是free thinker, 没有宗教信仰，问了我:"没有神，好吗? 头脑里空空。" 我笑着，因为我不知道要如何回答她。要用语言回答已经难，还要用手语回答她，更难。

不过她很有耐心，因为很多手语我不会或不记得了，她就拼音出来，真谢谢她的包容。

他们都会问，你喜欢和聋哑人士做朋友吗?其实我真的没有说喜欢或不喜欢的，我只是和任何人都可以做朋友，不会是因为特殊环境或人士。因为从心里认为，每个人都有我可以学习的地方，都有他强的一面。

人生，是一条永远都要学习的道路。

Learning . BIM

after form 5, was working as promoter in a small supermarket, while waiting for the SPM result. One day, came across a deaf person was wanting to buy something. The Deaf was trying to describe it, unfortunately i couldn't get it.

i was thinking, there must be a better way that both of us able to talk to each other, that where i know existence of structural sign language. the famous and well known is ASL, american sign language. there onward, i always wanted to learn, but time and financially was not able to do so.

till now.

learning sign language not much easier than learning others languages as well. BIM, bahasa isyarat malaysia, is conceptually from ASL, with some localised signs. From level 1 to level 2, i was struggling to get thru. I am a person need much much practice and usage to remember things, but in my life, there is no involvement with any Deaf, nor use of it.

Now come to level 3, it is like, "oh my, do i really wanna continue with it?".  thought about giving up, but i know i will regret it if i did. telling myself, just learn as much as i can, event if i couldn't pass the exam, at least exposure will let me on learning something.

it is about 10 weeks course, a day per week. this makes it even more tougher. group assignment, individual assignment, weekly assignments, exam preparation, exposure event preparation, social interaction....wow! good luck to me.

我需要把自己变得更好，虽然我不是最好的，但我可以做的更好。学习的也许在生活里不会用上，但学到的知识不会是一个错误。就像学手语一样。